Unconditional Love?

It has been a year and 13 days since my last entry. I think I owe myself this entry.

Recent, very recent developments in my life has made me all messed up again. Relationships have a place in everybody's lives, but I am so confused about the state of mine, and wether or not I am truly ready to be up for another.

Is there such a thing a conditional love?

Think about it; for you to love someone, you surely expect the person to love you back. Is that not a condition?

You hope that when you do something nice for the other half, they'd be grateful. Even guised as a hope, it IS a condition, because if they don't show appreciation, you'd be hurt... either privately or openly.

We ended our relationship yesterday; "no regrets". But I left wondering if I was ever truly ready for such a commitment after my last divorce.

Why do I wonder that?

Because I know that I was unfair in some ways to her. I was.

Did that stem from my belief that I was ready for love? And did that belief stem from my loneliness?

For sure, she was a special person. She touched my life in a way that it moved the core of my being.

Yet my truthfulness yesterday hurt her. Is that what is supposed to happen?

IF THERE ARE ANY READERS STILL TO THIS DEAD BLOG, PLEASE TALK TO ME...

Comments

reborn said…

Hi Norzu,

No. I think I'll be blogging again, and I hope for a while yet.

Thanks for the kind words; I just needed to vent...

I'll be writing soon about other mundane stuff, while at the same time asking for (other, if any) readers to put in their 2sen worth for my "issues"...

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